Do you remember which model you got? I'm gonna go down the rabbit hole of reading reviews and checking specs :P

I'm not the most knowledgable on this, so take what I say with a grain of salt.

What should be the most important is how you yourself feel, and then labels should come with that, and not the other way around: you shouldn't "choose" to identify as demiboy, and then try to change how you act and behave to try and match what's on the label.

The fun in labels and the such is that you can interpret them as you want (for yourself)! You can say you identify as demiboy and mean with that 100 boy, 50 girl or 100 boy, 23 girl or even 100 boy, 75 girl and none of those are more correct or a better fit to the demiboy label: it all comes down to what you decide "demiboy" means to you (also this applies to any other gender you might identify as, I'm just picking demiboy as an example as it's a bit more specific).

Also, you can always change your mind after choosing a label, it isn't set in stone so another option you have is to just pick one and roll with it, find out how it feels and how YOU feel about it, and if you don't like it then pick something else and try that!

I hope this makes some sense and is maybe helpful. Good luck on your discovery journey !

Haha yeah it's pretty fun!! I'm pretty sure I'd also cut myself if I used a live blade but that's what trainers are for, they just have a blunt edge so the worst you'll get are a couple knuckle raps :)

Would definitely recommend! It's really fun learning new tricks n stuff and with enough practice you can do some really cool stuff (I'm not there yet though :P)

I got an ownall addax after not too much deliberation because I didn't want to go too deep down the rabbit hole and just got my hands on something and it's been serving me really well !! My country has a ban on bladed balisongs though so I don't think I'll get one of those anytime soon...

I do have trying to make one myself at one of tde workshops at my uni as a project in the back of my mind though so that should be fun!

I flip balisongs (butterfly knives)! I got a trainer earlier this year and I've been slowly learning more tricks. I find it's somethitg quite relaxing since I tend to be quite fidgety and it's nice to be fully focused on something once in a while.

In this case yeah, it's formulated quite awkwardly by me since (I'm just gonna stick to she) she goes by she/her in daily life, but online she uses she/them and she told me she felt nonbinary to some degree although she hadn't told anyone else so I didn't really know what pronouns to use so I thought "let's roll with both".

Her exact words were something like "I just go by as female because I don't want to deal with the hassle of having to explain to people" so I actually don't know what she'd prefer in an ideal world

That's in a way a bit what I'm wondering about, like I don't want to come off as performative so I usually wouldn't bring it up except if the context made it relevant, but I also don't know if not explicitly supporting the LGBTQ community is passively enabling bigotry or something

Like I don't feel like I'm an ally because I don't really go out of my way to show it? I don't really know how to explain it other than my sister who is very explicitly an ally, like she has a bunch of rainbow stuff in her room and on her backpack etc and has a lot of queer friends while on my end I don't really show that? Like of course if someone was being a piece of shit towards my gay friends I'd step up and try and defend them, but that goes for any of my friends too?

Again I don't really know how to word it but I don't recognize myself in the term "ally" (although I've been considering putting a rainbow pin on my backpack or something because rainbows are cool)

The problem with carbon capture is that yes it exists, but is not nearly close to good enough for our needs. Add to that the fact that we physically do not have enough materials on Earth to implement it on the scale required and that becomes a tough pill to swallow.

I'm hopeful that some farming techniques may be promising and that not everyone's going to die, but relying on technology that doesn't really work yet seems foolish.

At any rate I'm not gonna sit around and twiddle my thumbs, I'm probably going to become an activist this summer instead and see where that takes me

I appreciate the advice and I am considering therapy right now.

I'm unsure about returning to my previous "carpe diem"-esque lifestyle, because at the moment I am pretty convinced that disaster is coming within the decade and I'm afraid that every moment will be tainted by this fear. I also don't know if I want to talk to other people about this, because I don't want to push this onto them and make them feel the same way as I do now.

And yes, every generation thought they'd be the last but I do think ours is in a bit of a more dire situation. Maybe that's just a dumb take on my part, but that's how I feel at the moment.

Sorry for basically dumping all my yucky feelings right now but I guess it had to come out somehow and I'm not waking up my roommate at 4AM

Thank you for the advice. I was planning on getting more informed on the topic so as to be able to talk to others about it better, because right now I think it would come across as incohesive rambling.

As to the part about me as an individual not being able to fix anything, while on one hand that is true and I already do what I can personally, the one thing I can try to do is to get more people involved because it feels like we're a train hurtling towards a cliff and two people on board even know where we're heading.

To be honest I am quite young and now it feels like most of the meaning in my life is ruined, and I don't think I can go back to how I was before. My plan for now is making trying my best to avert what's coming my life quest, but I don't know how that will make me.

I'm sorry for ranting but I guess I am quite emontionally distressed now, which is kind of the first time this happens to me and I don't know how to process it.

Thanks for your time and sorry again!