Listen to it, it's pretty good. The group that made it also created arrangement albums for various Falcom games and this time some pro composers like Raita and Eichiro Yanagi have also contributed
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I feel like I have lost my identity after 1year of job-searching and subsequently work. I don't understand how things came to this point, I feel like all of my personality has crushed by the 9-5. Does everyone feel this hollow or am I that unable to exist
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I think it counts the countries with NATO bases as occupied which I think is fair, there is no way those countries can do whatever they want with yankee boots on their soil
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I have to expunge the last bits of liberalism from myself. Shit like still eating meat once in a while, not wearing a mask when out with friends and ordering delivery when too tired to cook like a fucking treatlord. This site has unironically helped me in a ton of ways and I thank every one of you for this
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Greece too
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Work has broken my mind to the extent that I regressed to wanting to buy shiny Yu-Gi-Oh cards even if I know its a bad idea. My job isn't even that hard but it's still exhausting to have to take the 1h commute, mask and socialize, stress over my responsibilities and fake working even if my energy reserves are done for the day.
I don't understand if I am just naturally lazy or if the autism+ADHD combo is making this harder than it is for NTs.
If I didn't have my gf I don't know if I would be able to stand this situation. I barely manage to now, only by taking drugs and eating emotionally (I have reached my max weight so far).
At least I do some fun stuff from time to time like playing Kingdom Hearts for the first time (it was one of my childhood hyperfixations), watching quality media such as Twin Peaks with my gf and playing with the yugioh cube I assembled with the few friends I still have.
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Is there any way to reverse this? My girlfriend strongly suspects she has mild brain damage since she was infected with what was probably covid19 sometime before it became known, and it impacts her daily life somewhat. Is there any point in going to a neurologist? Thanks
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Void Stranger but I am not sure if the essaybros have found it
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I can picture a type of person that would enjoy Elden Ring for its artistic value but suck at games due to reasons outside their control (bad reaction times, poor concentration, sensory processing difficulties etc) or even due to not having enough time to "git gud". Why shouldn't they have their easy mode? Other mediums aren't that inaccessible to people
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It's absolutely ableist. My ADHD makes me worse at games for sure (and also way less able to tolerate punishing design such as the Dark Souls corpse runs), also some things like tapping rapidly I just can't do at all. The only answer gamer bros have for me is "git gud" or its even worse evolution "skill issue".
It really triggers the RSD sometimes but what can you do, I just play easier slop now (especially since work has crushed my soul) and have more fun. I would actually love a website that lists the bullshit in each game like infrequent checkpoints, difficulty spikes, lack of quest markers etc so I can know to avoid them.
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I don't really have intense sensory issues but ketamine analogs help me introspect and think without the anxiety caused by OCD or my emotional baggage so I really like them.
I have to warn you, if you overdo it with ketamine you will destroy your bladder. Also, take EGCG supplements when you trip because it might reduce the bladder damage (according to a study on rats it worked, no study has been done on humans AFAIK but it might work).
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- CrossCode (banger jazz fusion+prog OST, zelda-like dungeons, decent story about self-acceptance, great combat and bosses)
- Katamari Damacy (cozy, banger OST, wacky gameplay)
- ZeroRanger (GOATed OST, great aesthetic and story-gameplay integration)
- OFF (disturbing atmosphere and a story that's up to interpretation, artistically brilliant imo)
- Xanadu Next (japanese isometric dungeon crawler similar to Diablo but without the random loot and with a different build system, the music and atmosphere is pretty good, I also thought the story was pretty decent, make sure you collect all the records if you play it)
- Trails in the Sky trilogy (JRPGs with a great positional battle system, banger music and very charming and well written characters. Also, the world building is great. The next game in the series lost the charm imo, but most people like it as much)
- Ys: The Oath in Felghana (isometric action JRPG with gameplay that is a mixture of hack&slash, bullet hell and platformer, it's pretty unique. Also yhe music is good)
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The issue is sitting on a desk instead of a couch for even more of the day. I already had a low tolerance for such game systems (dunno if it's the ADHD), so now it's absolutely demolished and I feel you
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First full-time employment, and employment in general.
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I would love to, but I work in a huge open office so people could see what I was doing instead of pretending to work after my energy reserves have run out
I am sitting on a desk PC the whole day at work, which I believe has caused my ability to play games on my PC to diminish. I have found the following solutions, so I am asking to see if any of you has done something like that: 1) Buy a console (the easiest) 2) Connect the PC and the TV to a router to form an Ethernet LAN, and stream from the PC to the console using Steam Link 3) Connect the GPU's HDMI output to the TV's and the computer screen's inputs using a 1x2 HDMI switch With solutions (2) and (3) converting the PC to a console so I can sit on the couch and relax. Also, have you found your tastes change after starting work? I used to be into games with complex stories and/or challenging gameplay but now I feel to tired for that. Thanks
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I started playing WoW again (I was clean for 6 years). Surprisingly the game is still fun even if more soulless than its past iterations. The MoP remix event is also really fun, my Nightborne Warlock is completely overpowered now
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Best med I have ever taken for my combination of disorders (ADHD and OCD), it made me feel normal. However, it reduced my sleep time to 3h so I had to stop taking it. As far as sexual side effects go, it caused my ejaculations and orgasms to desync by a few seconds if that makes sense, was kind of funny actually
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I believe you would like Space Dandy then
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My current hyperfixation is the development of a Yu-Gi-Oh cube to play with friends. It's essentially a large collection of cards that can be used standalone that you draft from in order to produce your deck for that session. It's really interesting because I have to find keep the power level low but also add interesting synergies for the players to exploit.
My enduring special interests are anime (in general), yu-gi-oh (even though I am bad at it), early 2000s otaku culture and japanese doujin music, and Falcom (games, music team and the company's fucked up history).
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Thanks for your answers everyone, we read them all. She considers autism a more serious possibility than before she read them so they helped
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Eh I would argue that the Cuba episode and the airplane episodes differ on how the subject matter is presented. In the Cuba ep it is played straight, while in the airplane episode Archer is depicted as a racist and is the butt of the joke
She wanted me to make this post, because she is not sure if she is just "weird" or if she can get diagnosed with ADHD and/or autism and make her life a bit easier. The symptoms that bother her the most are the following: - Sometimes walks away from uninteresting conversations without realizing (with familiar people) with strangers, feels like being held hostage. - Intense focus to the point of forgetting to eat, drink water and neglecting to go to the toilet. - Periods of low mood and anhedonia vs periods of intense obsession(?) and excitement with some activity (specific game or game genre, desktop customization). - Diagnosed with dysthymia and BPD traits (due to self-harm). - Suicidal thoughts since 14 yo but never made an attempt. - Low self esteem. - Persistent interests for many years in which she has made great contributions. - Does not like to go out much and feels dirty after going out. - Very annoyed by insects, afraid of bees and wasps. - She is a perfectionist. - In kindergarten, she would not go out for recess if she was still in the middle of doing something (finishing a drawing). - When learning how to do something, she liked repeating the process e.g. making boxes out of paper, drawing the same image. - Always sits with her knees close to her chest. - Occasionally rocks back and forth or from side to side sometimes repeats certain sounds / jingles / song melodies. - She thinks in images instead of words, except when having depression-related thoughts (e.g. "I am useless"), or positive thoughts ("I can do this") or when daydreaming scenes with dialogue. - Because of this, speaking is hard for her as she has to translate the images to words. - Performs great at work but gets burned out quickly. - Is bad at socializing, and has cut contact with her old friends and does not want to go back to having friends - Zones out of conversations.
My gf has the correct political vibes so to speak, but no theoretical basis or knowledge of history. However, she is interested in watching documentaries on the subject, so which are the ones you found most valuable? Thanks in advance
I finally found a job so I am going to move out of my parents' house soon, in order to live in the large city where the job is located with my gf. I should be happy about finally becoming independent and being able to see her every day, however I only feel dread about the transition, the lack of free time for my interests (probably intensified due to my shit executive functioning) and the fact that I will miss my family. How did you handle such a transition?
I am in the interview process for a job in a research group and it is going well so far. The only issue is that I was attracted to the person that interviewed me and I am going to be working with if I get hired. My girlfriend is the most important person in the world for me so I don't want to risk catching feelings for someone else, but I also need to find a job if I am to rent a place to finally live with her. What would you do in my case? Would you stop the interview process and try to find a job elsewhere or would you go for it and trust that you would do the right thing? This question might sound deranged to you, but I have the full autism/ADHD/OCD combo so I am very out of touch with how the average person thinks.
I have been job searching for 6 months now, and I haven't found a job yet however I might have an opportunity to work in the gambling company a friend of my parents works in. All this time I never sent applications to gambling companies because fuck working for a company which exploits vulnerable people like that, but I am starting to get desperate and the unemployment boredom has made me depressed. I am thinking of rejecting the offer, but I wonder, is that just moralism on my part? Would you accept it?
Other themes made me feel like a heinous person, but they never made me doubt my connection to the most important person of my life. Why the fuck should I have to constantly doubt whether I am truly attracted or not to the girl that I fell for after a single conversation? Why should I hyperfixate on small differences of opinion and catastrophize about them instead of just feeling grateful about the wonderful person in my life? Why should I worry about her cheating in me, or the inverse when everything is going well? I am just so so so so so tired of this shit dude
I reduced my 150mg / day dosing by just 10mg and I already feel depressed, very irritable and self harming out of nowhere for the last 3 days. Am I doing this too fast?
For me it is Rabbit & Steel, bc I want to play bullet hell FFXIV with my gf: https://store.steampowered.com/app/2132850/Rabbit_and_Steel/ Other than that and Silksong (never ever) I don't have anything else on my radar for 2024 and beyond (it doesn't help that I am picky)
Or the people who say that are obsessed with subtlety and want everything to conform to the Western standards for art due to cultural hegemony brainworms? Sometimes I feel very guilty for engaging with this sort of media instead of something more "serious"
I was really let down by FFXIV: Endwalker, especially after Shadowbringers which had a really good story (with those juicy socialism / climate change themes). It felt (to me) as if the game transformed into complete capeshit where half of it was unsatisfying resolution of loose ends and the other a hamfisted story about optimistic nihilism vs negutilitarianism (the previous expansion covered hope vs despair well enough so it was kind of redundant as well imo). Why does every long-term JRPG project have to go to shit (similar to the Trails series after Sky the 3rd or Azure depending on who you are asking)? Why must capitalism make every piece of media shitty in one way or another? Rant over, feel free to post your own
I thought EoD was pretty mid and SotO has less content than other expansions, but my girlfriend loves the game so I want to play it with her.
She is at the point where she has a work-related breakdown at least once per week, and wants to quit her job. If that's what it takes for her to get better I am completely fine with it, but I can't help but think that this would happen in any job, because: 1) She wants to work the exact hours listed in her contract, without counting breaks of any kind so she effectively works more than 8 hours per day. She doesn't want to cheat her employer, despite knowing about wage theft. 2) She doesn't want to inconvenience anyone, so she consents to doing things that are too much for her. The biggest offender here are the work trips, she is very introverted and socialization tires her out, especially considering that she fakes her facial expressions and the way she speaks in order to fit in, so having to do that for 4 consecutive days with her coworkers is really taxing for her. Despite that, she goes anyways, because she doesn't want to inconvenience her manager and coworkers and comes back in a worse state than before she left. This also applies to working on things she doesn't like, which might have been avoided if she tried speaking to her manager (who is a pretty decent person luckily). I have also been burnt out during uni, and from experience know that if you don't stop on your terms, when your body and mind "tell" you you are at your limit, you are going to collapse in a much worse manner, so I want to prevent this somehow. But I feel like I can't do anything except observe her walk a dangerous path without robbing her of her agency and that's frustrating. Does anyone have some ideas for this?
I promise I am not a reactionary, but I am somewhat uneducated on the subject so I might say something offensive accidentally, sorry in advance about that. So, does gender dysphoria stem from a disconnect between the body and some "gender socialization" function of the brain, which could be solved by getting socialized and treated by everyone as the correct gender from the start, or something that stems from a disconnect between the brain and the actual body parts and hormones, so the transition is needed to alleviate that, or both?
I tried Prozac but it didn't help a lot and I found my gf so I didn't want the sexual side effects, then after a lot of anxiety tried Lyrica and it worked decently for a bit less than a year but I think that now it doesn't help that much (either because my circumstances are more anxiety inducing in general or because of tolerance). There aren't that many CBT therapists in my country either let alone ERP specialists (most are talk therapists or psychoanalysts). I'm not sure how much it would help anyways because I mainly have mental obsessions which might are more difficult to prevent. What did you do in a similar position? Did you manage to find some semblance of inner peace? Thanks for your time
As far as I could tell in the movie the rich people were depicted as decent parents if not a bit naive, while the poor family were backstabbing assholes who betrayed their fellow workers (the housekeeper and her husband) because of sheer malice. Not once does the film hint at the underlying economical system as the reason why the rich are rich and the poor are poor. If you are a socialist, you will (correctly) identify capitalism as the reason for the misery of the poor people in the film, and the rich as part of the bourgeoisie who exploit them. But that isn't any different than analysing an IRL crime through that lens, the film didn't help you reach that conclusion, it just presented a scenario. A chud could easily see the rich family as the honest entrepreneurs and the poor family as poor because of the negative behaviors they exhibited, and there is nothing in the film that would dispute that interpretation. With the poor family getting punished for their deception, and the son resolving to make money to save his father at the end (presumably through more "honest" means), it even displays the "pull yourself by the bootstraps" belief. The best case interpretation of the film I can make is that "the rich people should be more conscious of the poor's struggles, and the poors should stay in their place or risk losing everything" which is pretty reactionary and not the class conscious film many people described it as. I guess you could see the ending as punishment for the class betrayal but I think that's a stretch. Am I overzealous in policing the politics of the media I consume to the point of misinterpreting things or finding an even vaguely leftist film that hard?
Is there any hope for a revolution? The country isn't as wealthy as other imperial core countries, but it seems to me that even if the KKE managed to garner enough support and revolted, we would probably get invaded by Turkey, and I imagine the inverse is also true. Is the only way out of this a concurrent revolution in both countries?
I find it hard to believe that your family could starve to death just from some mistakes but I might be in the "too positively biased against AES" stage of my radicalization journey