traaaaaaannnnnnnnnns silent_water • Now • 98%

Trans Megathread for the Week of 7/8 - 7/14

site's back, time to party 

badposting silent_water • Now • 93%

if we're gonna VOOOOTE for a genocidier with one foot in the grave

it might as well be Henry Kissenger. what? you thought he was dead? the man's a lich.

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anyone else use the upbear to track read/unread?

it's helpful to know what I've already read. if it's not a shit reply, it gets a bear. ofc, this means I read shit replies multiple times and get angry all over but at least I know what's probably new (to me). you get a bear, and you get a bear, and you get a bear, and everyone gets a bear.

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[Conspiracy in Canton] this case is so fucking funny

cross-posted from: https://hexbear.net/post/2387976 > ok this is long because there's so much funny here, so many botched coverups, so many impossible things that all extremely definitely happened - trust me bro. > > the linked podcast is by a detail-oriented data nerd who has been driven insane by trying to follow the court documents and statements from both sides. the prosecutions allegations have changed so much and so much evidence altered that it's impossible to miss the coverup & conspiracy. > > this is the unusual murder trial of Karen Read, in which: > > ::: spoiler background > ___ > * the investigators botched the covered up of the murder of a cop. all signs point to it having been other cops who killed him. > * dating a cop is still the most dangerous path in life imaginable - you guessed it, they pinned it on his girlfriend. > * you can listen to the podcast (yt link above) for all the gory details as there's too many different different people involved. the podcaster has a bunch of charts up to help explain it [all visually on her website](https://13thjurorpodcast.com/conspiracy-in-canton). > * the short and sweet is that the pigs had a party, something happened, and one of them was found dead on the curb in the early morning. it was snowing lightly before he was found but became Boston's sixth worst snow storm on record. > ::: > > ::: spoiler the case against Karen Read > ___ > * the defendant dropped him off at the party just before 12:30 (oh yes, the minutes matter here). witnesses claim he never came inside. she claims she saw him go inside. > * they allege that he died from getting struck by an SUV driven by his drunk girlfriend, going like 30mph in reverse. the car had like 10-15ft to accelerate to that speed from a dead stop. but his physical state includes: > - a mostly intact skeleton - the only fractures are to his hands (boxer's fractures) and skull. boxer's fractures are exactly what they sound like: a pattern of fractures in the hand from throwing punches. > - the loss of 3/4 the blood in his body (only 6 drops were found in the snow). > - he also has obvious dog bites on his right arm that they're calling road rash but there's no other road rash on his body anywhere else. > - his face looks like he had the shit beaten out of him > - he died from blunt force trauma to the back of his skull, but not immediately -- his brain started hemorrhaging from the bone beneath his brain shattering, which always causes vomiting and seizures. he was still alive, though dying, when hypothermia set in. > - this is corroborated by the vomit found in his boxers. how did he get vomit in his boxers when he lay unconscious on his back? ahahahaha. and no, there was no way he could have regained consciousness after that kind of trauma to the brain. > * his body supposedly lay there for hours - midnight to 6am - unseen by any of the people who went by (suburb hell so extremely not dark, especially in the snow), but was immediately spotted by the defendant and the copwives who went searching for him. the spot he was in had snow piled up from a plough under his body but not over. the plough driver wasn't questioned for like 18 months after the incident. despite multiple trips back and forth, up and down the road - again, his body was found immediately when they went looking, hours before the sun came up. that's right, hours before dawn they put his body at the curb, hoping no one would see it. dark shapes kinda stand out on a white background. > * the prosecutions theory of how she murdered her boyfriend manages to defy the laws of physics, time, and biology. it's physically impossible. not improbable - actually impossible: > - the wrong taillight on her car is broken (so they changed it to "she was doing a three point turn"); there wasn't physical space for her to get up to enough speed to hit him with enough force to break the taillight; hitting him at such a speed would have left his body shattered but his injuries are too localized, etc. > - he died with a glass in his hand that he apparently held onto despite such a violent collision. it apparently broke around his hand, neatly arranged, like it barely broke and it definitely didn't cut his hand up. > - he was found on his back with his undamaged cellphone *under* his torso - again there was no way for him to regain consciousness after hitting the ground. > - yes, his chest sticks out in front of his belly (lmao the only cop), but he actually took the hit from the car to the belly and the car never touched his ribcage. > - he died a few feet from the curb even though the energy from the collision should have thrown him halfway across the yard. like basic conservation of momentum shit. trying to understand the physics of what the prosecution is alleging is hilarious and maddening because of how impossible it is. > > * so it's fully "he committed suicide with two shots to the back of his head" type shit. > ::: > > ::: spoiler evidence planting > ___ > * the evidence they planted was pieces of her taillight but they fucked up and got caught on camera taking her car before the time on the police report. they of course went back and tried to doctor the footage but some of the footage they deleted was the wrong footage. her taillight clearly wasn't as damaged when they took it as when they later submitted it in court filings. oops > * they planted the evidence hours after the initial investigation. in between the two, there was a massive blizzard. so they planted evidence ON TOP of nearly two feet of fresh snow that had fallen in the interim. > ::: > > ::: spoiler initial cover up > ___ > * the cops never searched the house he was found at. the flooring in the basement of the house was torn up and replaced within a few months and the house was sold at 50k under market value in the middle of the housing bubble. they also "lost" his clothing. > * everyone in the house that night were either cops, copwives, or local politicians. they pulled strings to get the case transferred from the local police department to the state police department where the lead investigator was willing to run cover. > ::: > > ::: spoiler FBI joins... the defense?? > ___ > * they screwed the cover up so badly that the FBI is sitting in the corner tugging on their collars going "not like that bro". in parallel with the trial, there's an entirely separate investigation by the FBI into the investigation and cover up. one of the people in the house immediately flipped and started cooperating with the FBI. > * the cops are insisting on their civil rights and right to privacy, while prosecuting the case. the defendant is nominally on trial but the roles appear reversed. the defendant is running a trial against the investigators because of how sloppy they were. the FBI is cooperating with the defense and sharing evidence with them. the court and prosecutor are trying to keep this evidence out of the trial. the problem is, the defense will get her off by arguing nothing but the impossibility of the prosecutions theory and the way the "evidence" has been altered. they can't bar that from the trial because the prosecution has to tell the jury *something*. so the entire rest of the case is for the sake of building a court record against the investigators on behalf of the FBI (ie make them say something so it's perjury when they change their story). the prosecution is too stupid to realize that the smart move is to shut the fuck up and drop the case to avoid jail. > * the federal grand jury has subpoenaed literally everyone involved in this case. fucking no name youtubers were interviewed to see if they might have sources who should be subpoenaed. iiuc, it's been going for weeks and has apparently filed a bunch of sealed indictments. > * one of the key witnesses for the prosecution (one of the cops inside the house, an ATF agent) signed a proffer, agreeing to cooperate with the FBI in exchange for either immunity or leniency (terms not yet revealed). > * the defense has promised to call a witness who can testify to what went down that night, so all bets are that it's this guy (Higgins). if it's not him, it's going to be someone else who was inside the house. they've promised too many details about what exactly went down for it not to be one of the people in the house. > * going to love to watch the cops squirm, trying to get his testimony excluded. I'm sure they'll find a way - it's just going to be extremely fucking funny. > ::: > > ::: spoiler the judge > ___ > * the judge is a family friend of the guy at whose house the victim died and isn't even trying to appear impartial. like blatantly denying the defendant access to exculpatory evidence - this is one of the only things that basically guarantees a successful appeal so you're supposed to try and hide it. actually, there's a lot in this trial that the cops, prosecutors, and courts normally try to hide - instead they're focused on destroying their own cellphones in the middle of an FBI investigation. > * the DA told witnesses to destroy their own cellphones in the middle of an FBI investigation, after they were told they were targets. yes, they think the only way the FBI can get that data is directly from their phones lmaooo. everyone involved in this is so fucking dumb. how do we know this conversation happened? because it was in the report the FBI sent to the lawyers. yes, you heard that right - they said this directly into the mic of an FBI wiretap. > * the judge has introduced a new rule that anyone the defense wants to issue a warrant against has to be given the opportunity to show up in court and argue against the warrant. that's a pretty good rule. they should do that in all trials, for all parties. oh, it's too bad it only applies to the defense. > ::: > > ::: spoiler arresting journalists > ___ > * obviously, journalists noticed all this so naturally they arrested the journalists for "witness intimidation". they're also arresting protestors at the court house for the same. naturally, this has triggered the Streisand effect - a lot of journalists started covering this because of the arrests and realized they had a gold mine after a cursory look at the case. > ::: > > ::: spoiler coverup, continued > * since that didn't work, now they're trying jedi mindtricks - the lead investigator was the co-lead investigator so we don't have to call him at trial, where he'd have to explain all this. he also wasn't at the crime scene and nevermind all the police reports that say he was. believe me, not your lying eyes. > * the prosecutions accusations keep evolving to become more elaborate as they realize it's not believable. old police reports change despite the fact that you can just pull them up from court records. > * witness statements aren't actually statements from witnesses - they're the investigators memory of those conversations from months later. there were apparently no recordings, no transcripts, and no notes. so the statements straight up contradict the original court filings and what the witnesses now say they remember. the witnesses didn't even get their own familial relationships right. > * cell data is oopsy, just incorrect. what do you mean the victim took phone calls for like an hour after he supposedly died? what do you mean he went up and down 3 flights of stairs - nonono, his health armband just went up and down on its own. > * we got caught on camera in 4k? oops, our bad, we deleted it. wait, we deleted the wrong segment and left in the bit that's good for you, but deleted the irrelevant bit? nah, camera is lying. don't worry though, we went door to door in the neighborhood and made sure everyone in the neighborhood deleted *all* their doorbell camera data so we can't make that mistake again. the cop across the street didn't delete his? we pinky swear that there's nothing relevant there - he said just trust me bro, so you have to believe him. > ::: > > ::: spoiler conclusion > ___ > * evidence tampering this obvious is one of the only ways to challenge a conviction and get it overturned. it's usually just impossible to prove because they aren't **this** bad at it. they're trying so hard to jam this conviction through, despite the fact that it's unlikely to stick, and the investigation they were trying to prevent is already happening. I'd be skeptical of the FBI here if they weren't cooperating with the defense and weren't already issuing mass subpoenas to a grand jury. pressing ahead while telling witnesses to destroy their phones and doctoring old police reports to change witness/cop phone numbers isn't going to help them land a conviction. > * ergo, they're just throwing a tantrum because they got caught. they want to hurt Karen Read because she exposed their obvious and botched coverup. it's not really about throwing her or anyone else in jail - it's just about causing them as much damage as possible on the way down. > ::: > > you literally can't make this shit up. like if this were a black comedy, I'd be saying it's still a little over the top. these are only the highlights. > > fuck this is so funny. the libs are all fucking aghast so they're not laughing (well, the ones who aren't eating up the painfully obvious lies, anyway). I need people to laugh with me. one of the copwives inside the house literally googled [sic] "hos long to die in cokd" hours before she accidentally drove the cop-victim's gf to his body. > > that's what got me interested in this case: the Google searches from inside the house; and all the third-party "experts", including unconnected cops, crying foul at how obvious all this is. like when cops get mad at a cover up over the death of a cop, you know there's gonna be some juicy, delicious shit. when I learned about the FBI investigating the investigation and cooperating with the defense, I knew I was gonna have to post this here. > > I cannot stop laughing. Cohen brothers, please, I need to see this on the big screen.

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[Conspiracy in Canton] this case is so fucking funny

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ok this is long because there's so much funny here, so many botched coverups, so many impossible things that all extremely definitely happened - trust me bro. the linked podcast is by a detail-oriented data nerd who has been driven insane by trying to follow the court documents and statements from both sides. the prosecutions allegations have changed so much and so much evidence altered that it's impossible to miss the coverup & conspiracy. this is the unusual murder trial of Karen Read, in which: ::: spoiler background ___ * the investigators botched the covered up of the murder of a cop. all signs point to it having been other cops who killed him. * dating a cop is still the most dangerous path in life imaginable - you guessed it, they pinned it on his girlfriend. * you can listen to the podcast (yt link above) for all the gory details as there's too many different different people involved. the podcaster has a bunch of charts up to help explain it [all visually on her website](https://13thjurorpodcast.com/conspiracy-in-canton). * the short and sweet is that the pigs had a party, something happened, and one of them was found dead on the curb in the early morning. it was snowing lightly before he was found but became Boston's sixth worst snow storm on record. ::: ::: spoiler the case against Karen Read ___ * the defendant dropped him off at the party just before 12:30 (oh yes, the minutes matter here). witnesses claim he never came inside. she claims she saw him go inside. * they allege that he died from getting struck by an SUV driven by his drunk girlfriend, going like 30mph in reverse. the car had like 10-15ft to accelerate to that speed from a dead stop. but his physical state includes: - a mostly intact skeleton - the only fractures are to his hands (boxer's fractures) and skull. boxer's fractures are exactly what they sound like: a pattern of fractures in the hand from throwing punches. - the loss of 3/4 the blood in his body (only 6 drops were found in the snow). - he also has obvious dog bites on his right arm that they're calling road rash but there's no other road rash on his body anywhere else. - his face looks like he had the shit beaten out of him - he died from blunt force trauma to the back of his skull, but not immediately -- his brain started hemorrhaging from the bone beneath his brain shattering, which always causes vomiting and seizures. he was still alive, though dying, when hypothermia set in. - this is corroborated by the vomit found in his boxers. how did he get vomit in his boxers when he lay unconscious on his back? ahahahaha. and no, there was no way he could have regained consciousness after that kind of trauma to the brain. * his body supposedly lay there for hours - midnight to 6am - unseen by any of the people who went by (suburb hell so extremely not dark, especially in the snow), but was immediately spotted by the defendant and the copwives who went searching for him. the spot he was in had snow piled up from a plough under his body but not over. the plough driver wasn't questioned for like 18 months after the incident. despite multiple trips back and forth, up and down the road - again, his body was found immediately when they went looking, hours before the sun came up. that's right, hours before dawn they put his body at the curb, hoping no one would see it. dark shapes kinda stand out on a white background. * the prosecutions theory of how she murdered her boyfriend manages to defy the laws of physics, time, and biology. it's physically impossible. not improbable - actually impossible: - the wrong taillight on her car is broken (so they changed it to "she was doing a three point turn"); there wasn't physical space for her to get up to enough speed to hit him with enough force to break the taillight; hitting him at such a speed would have left his body shattered but his injuries are too localized, etc. - he died with a glass in his hand that he apparently held onto despite such a violent collision. it apparently broke around his hand, neatly arranged, like it barely broke and it definitely didn't cut his hand up. - he was found on his back with his undamaged cellphone *under* his torso - again there was no way for him to regain consciousness after hitting the ground. - yes, his chest sticks out in front of his belly (lmao the only cop), but he actually took the hit from the car to the belly and the car never touched his ribcage. - he died a few feet from the curb even though the energy from the collision should have thrown him halfway across the yard. like basic conservation of momentum shit. trying to understand the physics of what the prosecution is alleging is hilarious and maddening because of how impossible it is. * so it's fully "he committed suicide with two shots to the back of his head" type shit. ::: ::: spoiler evidence planting ___ * the evidence they planted was pieces of her taillight but they fucked up and got caught on camera taking her car before the time on the police report. they of course went back and tried to doctor the footage but some of the footage they deleted was the wrong footage. her taillight clearly wasn't as damaged when they took it as when they later submitted it in court filings. oops * they planted the evidence hours after the initial investigation. in between the two, there was a massive blizzard. so they planted evidence ON TOP of nearly two feet of fresh snow that had fallen in the interim. ::: ::: spoiler initial cover up ___ * the cops never searched the house he was found at. the flooring in the basement of the house was torn up and replaced within a few months and the house was sold at 50k under market value in the middle of the housing bubble. they also "lost" his clothing. * everyone in the house that night were either cops, copwives, or local politicians. they pulled strings to get the case transferred from the local police department to the state police department where the lead investigator was willing to run cover. ::: ::: spoiler FBI joins... the defense?? ___ * they screwed the cover up so badly that the FBI is sitting in the corner tugging on their collars going "not like that bro". in parallel with the trial, there's an entirely separate investigation by the FBI into the investigation and cover up. one of the people in the house immediately flipped and started cooperating with the FBI. * the cops are insisting on their civil rights and right to privacy, while prosecuting the case. the defendant is nominally on trial but the roles appear reversed. the defendant is running a trial against the investigators because of how sloppy they were. the FBI is cooperating with the defense and sharing evidence with them. the court and prosecutor are trying to keep this evidence out of the trial. the problem is, the defense will get her off by arguing nothing but the impossibility of the prosecutions theory and the way the "evidence" has been altered. they can't bar that from the trial because the prosecution has to tell the jury *something*. so the entire rest of the case is for the sake of building a court record against the investigators on behalf of the FBI (ie make them say something so it's perjury when they change their story). the prosecution is too stupid to realize that the smart move is to shut the fuck up and drop the case to avoid jail. * the federal grand jury has subpoenaed literally everyone involved in this case. fucking no name youtubers were interviewed to see if they might have sources who should be subpoenaed. iiuc, it's been going for weeks and has apparently filed a bunch of sealed indictments. * one of the key witnesses for the prosecution (one of the cops inside the house, an ATF agent) signed a proffer, agreeing to cooperate with the FBI in exchange for either immunity or leniency (terms not yet revealed). * the defense has promised to call a witness who can testify to what went down that night, so all bets are that it's this guy (Higgins). if it's not him, it's going to be someone else who was inside the house. they've promised too many details about what exactly went down for it not to be one of the people in the house. * going to love to watch the cops squirm, trying to get his testimony excluded. I'm sure they'll find a way - it's just going to be extremely fucking funny. ::: ::: spoiler the judge ___ * the judge is a family friend of the guy at whose house the victim died and isn't even trying to appear impartial. like blatantly denying the defendant access to exculpatory evidence - this is one of the only things that basically guarantees a successful appeal so you're supposed to try and hide it. actually, there's a lot in this trial that the cops, prosecutors, and courts normally try to hide - instead they're focused on destroying their own cellphones in the middle of an FBI investigation. * the DA told witnesses to destroy their own cellphones in the middle of an FBI investigation, after they were told they were targets. yes, they think the only way the FBI can get that data is directly from their phones lmaooo. everyone involved in this is so fucking dumb. how do we know this conversation happened? because it was in the report the FBI sent to the lawyers. yes, you heard that right - they said this directly into the mic of an FBI wiretap. * the judge has introduced a new rule that anyone the defense wants to issue a warrant against has to be given the opportunity to show up in court and argue against the warrant. that's a pretty good rule. they should do that in all trials, for all parties. oh, it's too bad it only applies to the defense. ::: ::: spoiler arresting journalists ___ * obviously, journalists noticed all this so naturally they arrested the journalists for "witness intimidation". they're also arresting protestors at the court house for the same. naturally, this has triggered the Streisand effect - a lot of journalists started covering this because of the arrests and realized they had a gold mine after a cursory look at the case. ::: ::: spoiler coverup, continued * since that didn't work, now they're trying jedi mindtricks - the lead investigator was the co-lead investigator so we don't have to call him at trial, where he'd have to explain all this. he also wasn't at the crime scene and nevermind all the police reports that say he was. believe me, not your lying eyes. * the prosecutions accusations keep evolving to become more elaborate as they realize it's not believable. old police reports change despite the fact that you can just pull them up from court records. * witness statements aren't actually statements from witnesses - they're the investigators memory of those conversations from months later. there were apparently no recordings, no transcripts, and no notes. so the statements straight up contradict the original court filings and what the witnesses now say they remember. the witnesses didn't even get their own familial relationships right. * cell data is oopsy, just incorrect. what do you mean the victim took phone calls for like an hour after he supposedly died? what do you mean he went up and down 3 flights of stairs - nonono, his health armband just went up and down on its own. it's clearly faulty because it recorded data after... we took it into custody HOW ABOUT THEM APPLES * we got caught on camera in 4k? oops, our bad, we deleted it. wait, we deleted the wrong segment and left in the bit that's good for you, but deleted the irrelevant bit? nah, camera is lying. don't worry though, we went door to door in the neighborhood and made sure everyone in the neighborhood deleted *all* their doorbell camera data so we can't make that mistake again. the cop across the street didn't delete his? we pinky swear that there's nothing relevant there - he said just trust me bro, so you have to believe him. ::: ::: spoiler conclusion ___ * evidence tampering this obvious is one of the only ways to challenge a conviction and get it overturned. it's usually just impossible to prove because they aren't **this** bad at it. they're trying so hard to jam this conviction through, despite the fact that it's unlikely to stick, and the investigation they were trying to prevent is already happening. I'd be skeptical of the FBI here if they weren't cooperating with the defense and weren't already issuing mass subpoenas to a grand jury. pressing ahead while telling witnesses to destroy their phones and doctoring old police reports to change witness/cop phone numbers isn't going to help them land a conviction. * ergo, they're just throwing a tantrum because they got caught. they want to hurt Karen Read because she exposed their obvious and botched coverup. it's not really about throwing her or anyone else in jail - it's just about causing them as much damage as possible on the way down. ::: you literally can't make this shit up. like if this were a black comedy, I'd be saying it's still a little over the top. these are only the highlights. fuck this is so funny. the libs are all fucking aghast so they're not laughing (well, the ones who aren't eating up the painfully obvious lies, anyway). I need people to laugh with me. one of the copwives inside the house literally googled [sic] "hos long to die in cokd" hours before she accidentally drove the cop-victim's gf to his body. that's what got me interested in this case: the Google searches from inside the house; and all the third-party "experts", including unconnected cops, crying foul at how obvious all this is. like when cops get mad at a cover up over the death of a cop, you know there's gonna be some juicy, delicious shit. when I learned about the FBI investigating the investigation and cooperating with the defense, I knew I was gonna have to post this here. I cannot stop laughing. Cohen brothers, please, I need to see this on the big screen.

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PSA: ExpressVPN, PIA, and Cyberghost are all run by Israeli intelligence

they were all owned by the same company and [sold to Kape](https://www.hackread.com/private-internet-access-pia-vpn-sold-israel-privacy-concerns/), [which has ties to the Israeli intelligence service](https://www.cnet.com/tech/services-and-software/what-is-kape-technologies-what-you-need-to-know-about-the-parent-company-of-cyberghost-vpn/), a few years back. > The issue is who he sold it to -- the notorious creator of some pernicious data-huffing ad-ware, Crossrider. The UK-based company was cofounded by an ex-Israeli surveillance agent and a billionaire previously convicted of insider trading who was later named in the Panama Papers. It produced software which previously allowed third-party developers to hijack users' browsers via malware injection, redirect traffic to advertisers and slurp up private data. I personally use perfect-privacy, which didn't turn up any red flags when I did research a few years ago. it's a little lacking in features but openvpn isn't that hard to set up on linux & android. no clue how well their desktop app works.

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Weekly Trans Megathread for the Week of 2/10

want to share something that you don't think deserves it's own thread? wanna chill with your trans homies? wanna support your trans comrades? do it here!

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Weekly Trans Megathread for the Week of 2/3

want to share something that you don't think deserves it's own thread? wanna chill with your trans homies? wanna support your trans comrades? do it here!

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in a shocking - shocking - turn, YouTube pedohunter likely collecting CSAM

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skip past the drama at the start to the part where he gets to mega banning this guy's account for sharing known CSAM and why it's definitely CSAM. yes, Mutahar is a liberal and his takes about cops are annoying. and yes, he buried the lede.

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WTF MY BOSS & SOME COWORKERS KNOW ABOUT THIS SITE

my boss said he doesn't personally post here but some others might. and my boss thinks it's cool that I'm a leftist, he's one too, apparently, and that a bunch of our coworkers are leftists. some of them might post here?? it's a finance firm -- the last place I'd expect this. how the fuck do they have a positive opinion of this place?? YOU HAVE TO TELL ME IF YOU POST HERE AND WHAT YOUR @ IS. THIS IS SO UNFAIR LEAVING ME ON THE HOOK LIKE THIS. DON'T MAKE ME POST PPB TO THE WORK SLACK AND SEE WHO LAUGHS. (I use tree style tabs so they can read my tabs when I share my screen -- I didn't hide this place because who the fuck has heard of hexbear)

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"standard time" is revisionist bullshit

EST should be -4 not -5. this is fucking reactionary and you can't expect me to remember this shit. fuck congress for ruining this possibility after passing it.

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wapo running a zionist hit piece

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lmao her cowardice is amazing. critical support to the greyxone and EI

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what would you lose, were you cis?

it strikes me that internalized cissexism^[1]^ plagues our communities. we try to prove to ourselves that we are trans by asking ourselves if we would, in the press of a button, bring our selves and bodies into alignment, and in that act, make ourselves cis. we wonder and we obsess, pondering the question, "am I trans?" but [we never ask "am I cis?"](https://freethoughtblogs.com/nataliereed/2012/04/17/the-null-hypothecis/) but this self-directed transphobia runs much deeper. how many grieve for the selves they lost, for the person that might have been, had they been born cis? in this, we never stop to ask ourselves, "what would I have lost?" for myself: everything I cherish, all I value most. to be cis, I must give up the experiences that have shaped me most, and in so doing, I'd make of myself someone else. there are many painful things I might have wished to avoid but, looking back, I see a clear trajectory of necessary action taken quietly and without fanfare to survive what had to be survived until freedom was within reach. to dream of living some other life would be a critique of that person inside who worked so hard to bring us to this point of inner tranquility and outer safety. and really, what do I have to critique? should I castigate the child for repressing in an unsafe home, especially after learning now, as an adult, that my father would hurt or kill me if he learns I'm trans? or should I reprimand the young woman for learning to endure, internally divided, and oh so alone? but, one might ask, "what of your body? do you not transition to make it as cis as possible?" to this: no. my trans body has endured so much, with both strength and grace, and it will weather so much more; I dare the coming storms. rather, I transition now to make this body habitable for her, for the scarred and indomitable woman who would leave her mark on the world. I transition because a little remodeling frees her from repressive chains. I remake tomorrow, not yesterday. if instead, I chased a platonically perfect body, if I rumimated on the experience of a cis childhood, lost to the circumstances of my birth, if I obsessed over the impossible, I'd forget the diamond, dreaming of a reprieve from the heat of her makers' forge. I do not wish I were cis. [1] the notion that we are all cis, with perhaps an asterisk to note the disquieting, uncomfortable, growing population of exceptions who wish they were cis, and must be helped to it.

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Trans Megathread for January

don't think you have something that deserves it's own post? wanna vent or get support? wanna share good vibes or support your trans comrades? post it here!

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A real history of video games | Pay to Win

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cross-posted from: https://hexbear.net/post/1384395 > an interesting look at the connection between video games and gambling - a lot of classic games companies started out building slot machines.

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A real history of video games | Pay to Win

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an interesting look at the connection between video games and gambling - a lot of classic games companies started out building slot machines.

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The Incel to Trans Pipeline and Inside Mari

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cross-posted from: https://hexbear.net/post/1228516 > well-written analysis of the trans experience and the weird shit that goes on in the heads of repressed trans people.

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The Incel to Trans Pipeline and Inside Mari

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well-written analysis of the trans experience and the weird shit that goes on in the heads of repressed trans people.